[Natalia]
A long time ago, I wrote a post about a girl I didn't understand. I felt that I was being attacked, and I retaliated in a very passive way. In a way, I was attacked. Words were said that returned me to my worthless state. But that doesn't make my passive attacks right.
I am writing a post. One that describes every inch of what happened this weekend. It is a pure journal entry, one meant for me, that I can look back on this weekend, and remember the joy I felt.
A miracle happened. Several of them.
I had a paragraph. A couple. That I interjected into the post here and there, and decided after doing a proofread, that she deserved more recognition than a side post amidst everything that happened this weekend. Here is the paragraph, and my expound on it.
Her contributions to this entire weekend, her patience, and her endurance of something she was unsure of, is not anything that can be explained in words, because I cannot explain my joy that she brought about. It is beyond words. Someone out there is as fascinated with me, as I am with her. Regardless of anything that happened, any side reactions to her friendship, I matter. I matter to her. And its her example that I hope I can be able to look up to, and work my way up to her level in this regard.
I want to be the girl who changes the lives of people. I want to be... that girl....
and here, she's achieved that.
I guess she fits in with the people I choose to call my friends. All my friends have a different ability they can do, that I always wish I could. That collectively, you get the ME I want to be. And by including her in my life, I'm that much closer to being the Me I want to be.
P.S. Check out my 101 in 1001 and see how I'm doing!
I am writing a post. One that describes every inch of what happened this weekend. It is a pure journal entry, one meant for me, that I can look back on this weekend, and remember the joy I felt.
A miracle happened. Several of them.
I had a paragraph. A couple. That I interjected into the post here and there, and decided after doing a proofread, that she deserved more recognition than a side post amidst everything that happened this weekend. Here is the paragraph, and my expound on it.
First though, I want to make mention of Natalia. She was the facilitator of all of this. If Cory had picked anyone else to date, none of THIS would have happened. That she influenced, a man, to reconnect with someone who hurt him. At her insistence, he changed. By her example, he did a 180. He didn't like it. He probably still doesn't like it. But he's trying. Because she asked him to. By her strength, and her influence he changed. She changed someone's life. Just by being herself. I can't seem to get past that. Its something I've always tried to do. To know I influenced and changed someone's life.
It makes me insanely jealous.
Her contributions to this entire weekend, her patience, and her endurance of something she was unsure of, is not anything that can be explained in words, because I cannot explain my joy that she brought about. It is beyond words. Someone out there is as fascinated with me, as I am with her. Regardless of anything that happened, any side reactions to her friendship, I matter. I matter to her. And its her example that I hope I can be able to look up to, and work my way up to her level in this regard.
I want to be the girl who changes the lives of people. I want to be... that girl....
and here, she's achieved that.
I guess she fits in with the people I choose to call my friends. All my friends have a different ability they can do, that I always wish I could. That collectively, you get the ME I want to be. And by including her in my life, I'm that much closer to being the Me I want to be.
P.S. Check out my 101 in 1001 and see how I'm doing!
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