A rant. and Someday
Something really bugs me. This blog is my personal feelings blog. I put stuff here mostly about me. Other people may get involved. Its still about me. I was asked to take a post down the other day. The person who was involved with the post was fine with it. I didn't point fingers in it, nor gossip in anyway. The entire post was about me and my feelings dealing with something. It became my business when I became involved. And involved I was. For 7 hours, I was very involved with a situation that I posted about. It was very much my business.
My blog is not a news flash, nor a gossip site. There are celebrity sites about that. This is for me to post things that bug me, things that excite me, things that make me happy, things that make me sad. I don't post things hoping that people will read it, and i write things without the expectation that anyone will ever read it. I went for years writing with no one reading it. I'm still surprised that anyone reads it. I write with the hope that someone might read it, and understand me a little better. For the last couple months, the posts have been downright depressing. Did anyone do anything about it. Yes. 1 person took time out of their life to go shopping, and try and make things better.
I guess my hopes weren't recognized, or my blog just isn't read. Take your pick.
I'm moving on Saturday. I'm going to start some place new in a new ward, and try to get a new group of friends. And no, while its not a secret where i'm moving, I'm not going to broadcast it. Someone apparently close to me decided that I was worth harassing for long periods of time. And like it or not, everyone, with the exception of a couple, is a suspect.
Friendship over the last couple months has been scarce. Thank you to those who have made the effort to pull me back out of my hole. Someday I'll be normal again. Someday it won't hurt so much. Someday...
1 thoughts :
Hm, well, it's too bad someone had to take what you felt too personally and ruin it for you. I hope things turn out better in your new ward, that those new friends you make really help you out instead of taking you for granted. Though, if you think about, there are still people that care about your welfare, and hope things turn around for you, even if they're not directly involved in your life. Not all hope is lost. But I think you're getting closer to finding your happiness. You're getting closer to your sunshine, and all the trials you've endured will help you keep that sunshine.
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