Grudges... I hate them
I hate holding grudges. Mostly its because of the plans of vengence that I make up in my mind, and they give me a sick feeling of satisfaction. Its just dumb. I feel like I'm losing friends.. Or at least I will because my temper is going to go off, and then I will say something I will regret, and I will lose someone very special to me. and I can't live with myself if I did that. But this fight isn't one where you can just make up. There's other things involved. I have to say, I did alot of thinking last night, and really didn't get any sleep, mostly because as I was thinking, I was crying too.
As an afterthought... I haven't cried this much since last february when I was on the zoloft. but it feels good, to let lose feelings that have been pent up inside me
Oh well, I've got to get to work.
Laura
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