James: we are too close of friends.
Me:....
James: I get impressions sometimes. And they're usually real. They always come true. And I see that if we stay as close as we are... you'll end up alone... and I will marry the wrong girl.
Me: so. What you're saying... is... if I take this at face value. If I stay close to you, I'll miss him when he comes by. And you'll miss her.
James: yes.
Me: so he's here. Somewhere. Here being now. Most likely in my life or on the path for that. Soon.
James. That's how I see it.
I was giving myself 2 months to detach from him. Will I find someone in the next 2 months? What does this mean???
Guys. **dies** it sounds and feels like some movie. I now wander the halls of vivint wondering at all the guys and wondering who he is? Who are you?
Me:....
James: I get impressions sometimes. And they're usually real. They always come true. And I see that if we stay as close as we are... you'll end up alone... and I will marry the wrong girl.
Me: so. What you're saying... is... if I take this at face value. If I stay close to you, I'll miss him when he comes by. And you'll miss her.
James: yes.
Me: so he's here. Somewhere. Here being now. Most likely in my life or on the path for that. Soon.
James. That's how I see it.
I was giving myself 2 months to detach from him. Will I find someone in the next 2 months? What does this mean???
Guys. **dies** it sounds and feels like some movie. I now wander the halls of vivint wondering at all the guys and wondering who he is? Who are you?
Oh. You misunderstand.... I don't care about getting married. That can wait 10 years. I just am waiting for the day I find someone who understands me and can help take the edge off the consistent loneliness. Just the guy I know heavenly father picked out for me. I've always noticed his absence... ever since I was little... and I've wondered if that's where all the loneliness comes from.
ReplyDeleteAnd I'm praying about it... but something about his statement rang true with me...
"While marriage is difficult, and discordant and frustrated marriages are common, yet real, lasting happiness is possible, and marriage can be, more an exultant ecstasy than the human mind can conceive. This is within the reach of every couple, every person. “Soul mates” are fiction and an illusion; and while every young man and young woman will seek with all diligence and prayerfulness to find a mate with whom life can be most compatible and beautiful, yet it is certain that almost any good man and any good woman can have happiness and a successful marriage if both are willing to pay the price."
ReplyDeletePres. Kimball
There is no one person that Heavenly Father has picked out for you - which as a married person is almost a blow to the head because it totally seems like Eric was made for me and it is sad to think he could be happy with someone else, but for a single person that should bring you comfort. You don't have to be on the look for "one" person...
You're right. There is no one person. However, there is someone already known to God that I pick. That I've dreamed about.
ReplyDeletehttp://www.kikastrophe.net/2012/07/you.html
That's who I'm waiting for.
wow.
ReplyDeleteyoure very good at completely blowing off useful comments that people give you. your responses to both Brittany and Jessie are great examples of this.
they didnt attack you, they didnt put you down. they commented very thoughtfully and in a thoroughly thought-out manner. they made very solid points regarding your thought process and the flaws in your logic. they even used citations and experiences for you.
and what did you do? essentially you told them to bugger off and that you know better than they do.
you have a lot of talk about trying to grow and always moving toward being better. but i dont see it. when you blow of people who try to help like this, how can you expect people to want to keep helping you or being around you? how can you think that you can learn anything?
... Really? Really?
ReplyDeleteI didn't feel she blew me off - she simply clarified.
I see why you comment anonymously - you know I'd come kick your butt if I knew who you were. If you have something to say you don't say it publicly - you say it in private, in person, AFTER asking permission to provide criticism and you say it in a positive way - not in a negative way.
Yes, I just did it publicly but seeing as you are anonymous I don't have much of a choice.
Anonymous, I hope you are subscribed to Laura's comments so you see this...
Laura, you can disable anonymous comments on your blog - that may take care of this "issue"
Just because i didn't say "Hey, thanks for your comment I'm taking that to heart" doesn't mean I didn't listen to them. I pointed out what they were misunderstanding in my post about something. Growth doesn't come in the form of "LISTEN TO ALL THE PEOPLE AND DO EVERYTHING THEY SAY" Growth comes in my own personal form.
ReplyDeleteAnd of course I'm beligerant and rude. I'm a borderline. That's what I'm aiming to fix. That's my trial that's my goal. Of course its not done over night. Those are your expectations, not those who choose to comment.
I don't care if you see the growth, mr. Anonymous stalker. Its not for you to see.
Dear Anonymous,
ReplyDeleteLaura has just explained to me her desire to leave the option to comment anonymously open for those who truly want to give productive comments ... she has faith in human kind and I pray that you will respect that and leave her alone.
This blog is not for you - it is for her to express her feelings and for those of us who genuinely wish to know her feelings. It is also for those who have the same disorder to learn there are others out there and to gain support.
If you don't like what she writes, don't follow her blog.
Trust me, everything you say has already crossed her mind - she is borderline, remember? She doubts her self plenty without you to go in there and add to it.
Please go away. Do not come back.
Remember Liam Neeson in Taken? That is me... Really, it is in everyone's best interest if you kindly take a step back and keep your opinions to yourself.
Unfortunately, Anons' logic is decently sound. Whether you agree with its methods or not is entirely irrelevant, but everything it says is pretty spot on.
ReplyDeleteAdditionally, the Liam Neeson comment? That just sounds stupid and immature.