[Cheater]

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

[Cheater]


You know, once upon a time, you were my friend.  Yeah, I'll admit, we got off to a rough start.  I hated you to begin with.  Something about you.... I didn't like the way you were charming my friends and making them feel comfortable about things that were wrong.  I stayed away from you.  You were part of the reason that I disappeared for a summer, and went to hang out with other friends.

I liked the attention though.  You always sought me out, and found ways to insult me, and I did it right back.  You hated me too.  I think that was the beginning of our friendship.  If you could even call it that.

You were there.  You were there when he wouldn't date me, when he hurt me, when no one else would help me.  You took me out every night, and gave me hot chocolate at Denny's.  And let me cry.  You gave me permission to trust you, and in turn I gave you my secrets.  You charmed me to feel comfortable about things that were wrong.  My feelings of distrust and wariness were replaced by others of acceptance and belonging.

After the break up, you were the one I called every night, and cried into the phone for 3 hours straight.  You listened, and after I hit rock bottom, you lifted me up.  As someone who was at the bottom looking for any comments, with sexual hit ups and flirtatious remarks, I found my only solace in life being that I was apparently still an object of desire for someone.

I never wanted you. i considered you... but never liked nor wanted you in any way.  But I liked the attention.  The feeling of need and want.  I look back and see many of my steps and reactions manipulated.  But no one is perfect.  people make mistakes, and I, at the time saw myself climbing out of a hole.  I loved you.  Like my older brother, I loved you.

BUT THEN TO FIND OUT YOU'VE BEEN MARRIED THE ENTIRE TIME!?  THE ENTIRE TIME THAT I HAVE KNOWN YOU, 2 YEARS,  YOU HAVE HID YOUR WIFE AND KIDS?!

YOU 'DATED' SOMEONE IN THE GROUP! YOU MADE OUT WITH OTHERS, AND HIT ON ME!  HOW THE HECK TO YOU FEEL COMFORTABLE SMACKING LIPS WITH SOMEONE WHILE YOUR WIFE WAS AT HOME?  YOU DATED HER FORGETTING THE VOWS YOU MADE WITH YOUR WIFE.

"you can't come over because my niece lives with me and always walks around in her underwear"

The part that bugs me the most... your 'girlfriend' caught on.  Things went south, and she was thought to be desperate BY YOUR WORDS.  She came to me you know.  Asked me for help, needed my internet searching capabilities.  She had her name.  Your wife.  She pleaded with me to find who she was.  And you made us think she was crazy.  I performed basic searches, and walked away, believing the words of a snake. What an idiot I was.

You just had a baby girl.  How will she feel when she finds out that her daddy kissed other women?  That her daddy wanted other women than her mommy.   How will your wife feel, when you scorned her name and told vicious lies about her, when your secret almost leaked a year and a half ago.

You underestimate me.  You underestimate my search abilities.  You always have.  You tried to hide.  You hid your pictures, you hid your life, and deleted anything that indicted you.  I found you.  A friend found the comment on your FB about your son.  I found you.  I went through my old chats, and found the name, the name you scorned, the name I was asked to search for.  And I searched again.  And Again.  I found her facebook, I found her blog.  I found your house for sale, by her.  I found your secrets, your daughter, your son.  I found your lies, your past.  Your lies about school, and where you were.  Your lies about what you wanted to do with your life.

And, due to my special abilities, I found your address and home phone.

And the contact information of your wife's siblings.

Mark my words.  She will find out.  You will screw up.  All your carefully patched up lies will crash.  And you might possibly, lose the one person who in all the world would have forgiven you.



To the rest of you who read this.... I suggest you not betray me.

Have a nice day.

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4 thoughts :

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Unknown said...

So you're saying I bought you all that hot chocolate for nothing?

Michelle said...

i know EXACTLY who you're talking about.

how? because i knew his wife. he was in my ward.

and when i confronted him one day saying "hey, i know you ... you're {insert name here}'s husband, you were in my {blah blah blah} ward." he told me i was wrong and that i had no idea who he was.

funny.

in a not so funny way.

sorry he pulled a fast one on you.

Laura said...

He pulled a fast one on all of us.

Was his wife in your ward? or did he go to a singles ward?

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