[Perks]
Honestly, readjustment hasn't been all that hard, since they got back, (well, Chris is gone again.) Its easy to tell that they missed me. There's a lot more texting and instant message conversations going back and forth. I'm over there muchly, and there's many more smiles and laughter. Really, the only noticeable difference though, is the fact that Chris and I can be seen holding hands occasionally, or sneaking silly faces at each other. I've come to realize though, there's many realizations I've come to concerning my situation that I didn't realize before...
- They plan an activity, and its automatically assumed I'll be there, whether I'm there to acknowledge it or not.
- There is no hesitation with either of them, when I say "I'm bored" and they say "well, get your butt over here"
- Last night I locked myself out of my house, and instantly, Danny said, "you can crash on my couch"
- I never have to drive anywhere anymore. Both Danny and Chris either really really like driving, or they don't like other people driving. This saves me money on gas.
- I eat more of a variety of foods now. Salmon, asparagus, Grilled pb&j potato salad are just a few of the new foods I've tasted.
- Last night, as I said goodbye to Chris, there was a ton of emotional support from Danny, (as awkward as he made it though...) and Kayla, and even Brady, and they assured me they would keep me busy while he was gone.
- The topic of conversations, would be extremely awkward for anyone other than us, but we're so comfortable with each other, it doesn't matter.... for example, Kayla and I will break into conversation about periods, and the boys will stop to listen intently, and even ask questions, and conversation moves into the next topic with out breaking stride.
- We're weird. We're beyond weird. We do the weirdest things. People look at us like we're nuts from the outside.
There's something nice about having friends who treat you like family or that you're one of the most important people in your life. We are that close with each other and comfortable. There's also something nice about being able to spend as much time with each other as we have, and still love each other... I have never fought with Danny, and my frustrations with Chris were due to misunderstandings.... I laugh at the people who think Danny is too weird, or Chris is too shy... a little bit of patience and you are severely rewarded. I'm probably happier now than I have ever been. Content, maybe not, (the most content I've been was in 2008 with the formation of the squad) but happy... A day hasn't gone by where I haven't died laughing from something one of the 2 have said.
happy.
happy.
P.S. Check out my 101 in 1001 and see how I'm doing!
3 thoughts :
Tell me the difference between content and happy.
Its exactly the difference between '08 and right now. In '08, as far as I know I didn't have any problems with anyone, we were doing something every week, we were active, I was actively dating.
Now, even though I'm happy, you see me smiling much more, you see my joy, I miss Cory, (for example) I hate how that ended, and wish to continue my friendship, and even though I'm over it, sometimes it haunts me in my dreams. I wish I was active again, instead of sitting around all the time talking... I'm happy, but content? not really. Its possible to be both, and its possible to be one or the other, at least in my opinion.
Reminded me of a quote I really like.
“Restlessness is discontent and discontent is the first necessity of progress. Show me a thoroughly satisfied man and I will show you a failure.”
-Thomas Edison
:)
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