[A Familiar Ground]
In times of trouble, and in pain, or especially in times that have unfamiliarity to them, one seeks for the familiar ground, something solid, something to anchor you to reality. For me, my anchor or anchors as it may be, at this point in time, are the Eyes of Danny Gray. This is not a "oh, i love you so much can I stare into your eyes" type of a situation, its a "help me, I'm floundering, and I'm being pulled into a whirlpool, please save me" situation, that when I look at him, and he looks back, he understands.
Wednesday night, I had to say goodbye to my boyfriend AGAIN, for another month. Except this time, I don't have the luxury of Skype, and hardly even text as most of the time he's without service, and the times he has it, he's a teacher, and is very busy. As he was putting his stuff onto the bus up in Ogden, (he was busy) It was with Danny that I found solace, in my time of pain. Several times, we locked eyes as I tried hard not to cry, and I could see the understanding and the need to try and help, as a grim smile appeared on his face.
Today in sacrament meeting, again, I was in pain, and from across the room, we locked eyes, and he understood.
The last several days its been me and Danny, and when Kayla gets off work, I wander back to my apartment. For several hours a day, the world becomes right, and the mental forces threatening to destroy me are pushed back for one more moment, just one moment, just to push against the shield that he has put up around me. I'm so lucky and blessed to have been pushed into the path of a friend who is so perfect for me. Someone who helps me see my worth , and helps me work things out, and see the gifts Heavenly Father has given me
When its been counseled to choose your friends wisely, do it. I've had the opportunity, (unfortunately) to see the difference between those who are no good for you, and those who are. And I'm grateful to say that I've been placed in the path of those who are right now my closest friends: Danny, Chris, Socorro, Karl, Stephanie, Kristen, Jillian, Alex, Jessica, Xander, Donny, Ben and while we don't talk alot, David. Thanks guys, for giving me a familiar ground to stand on, in the midst of everything falling apart around me.
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3 thoughts :
hey, what about me? I thought we were friends?
Dear Reuben,
Thanks for giving me something to laugh about when I post a blogpost.
It's so great that you have that many wonderful friends. I've moved so many times that I never get the chance to grow that kind of group!
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