[Poetry?]

[Poetry?]

   5:18 PM       Laura

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I wait anxiously for your arrival. 

From the days that I've been counting. 

I can't believe its been so long. 

I try hard not to hyperventilate, 

for in just moments of eternity, your arms will be around me, 

and life will be okay. 

Will you want me?

Those words you say again and again. 

You haven't seen me for a long time.  

Have you forgotten what's wrong with me? 

The scars in my brain that *he* caused. 

The pain that I hide deep within my soul. 

I've missed you. 

I made a paper chain, of the things that I missed. 

One for each day you were gone. 

It adds color to your room, or, will, when I put it up there. 

Things change in 43 days, 

Who are you now? 

Will you pick me up and hug me tightly 

and never let me go?

Will our kiss, the one we talk about, be exactly like we imagined?

The sweetness of being reunited, after being apart for so long. 

What will you say? Will I cry?

What will we do?

What do you smell like, 

Its been so long... 

The barest whiff of you hides in your room

and I get a gleam of it when I go to play with your cat.  

The barest scent, that brings back memories,

then its gone again.

I have watched videos of you
again and again, with the volume up full,
trying to remember the shape of your face,
the sound of your voice.
What will it sound like,
when i hear it for real, in my ear? 

What will it feel like, 

to have your arms around me, pulling me close. 

Playing cat and mouse with our hands?

Will life be normal again? 

When I sprint across the parking lot 

every day after work, 

just to be with you?

Or.... will you forget me?

4 days 

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