[Inevitability]
Sometimes, my mind gets away from me, and I remember something is missing. And then inevitability smashes into me from behind.
Yesterday was horrible.... I'm not going to go into why. Know that I was ready to leave for Wyoming... It was a cascade of like 5 things all at once that hit me...
I ran Danny my season 5 discs... I didn't know when I was coming back. I told Chris I was going for a long drive, and didn't know when I was coming back... I walked out the door, and had a panic attack hit me. I called Chris, and he talked me through it and I went back to their place... and cried. I broke down in a way similar to right after my break up. It was nasty...
Laura: I don't know what's wrong with me.... Something's wrong... everyone keeps leaving, even after they say they won't...
Danny: I think.... its your toenails... they don't like the purple.... hey, are you coming to our movie night?
AND WHERE ARE MY LEGS?!
Anyway... Somehow, in the bleakest of moments, these people that I know were an answer to a prayer months ago, responded in the way I needed to. I started to cry again.. not in sadness, but in happiness... that these 2 boys who live next door can respond to my anguish, and heal it.
ok.. maybe not exotic... Danny decided to talk to a bearded dragon ^
We went back and we watched GI Joe. I photoshopped.
It didn't turn out the way I wanted to...
Everything turned into a large slumber party... everyone was too tired to move.
Someday, I'll extrapolate the text from the video i took at 5 in the morning...
Anyways... this was the next morning:
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