URGH

Well, I left a flower on his bed. I hope he figures it out. He did that to me before christmas break, and i loved it, so i did it back. Well, I never would have come up with it myself, i think i had a little help with it. Yesterday I fasted. Never really fasted for anything like this before, but its important to me. I need to convince him i'm serious. But i don't know if i can do that, or even how, or if its even possible. Its worth it to try. And if I knew that someday i could do it, i'd keep trying.
I got a blessing last night too..... interesting information in that.

It was an interesting experience. Once i figured out what exactly was going on, it was easier to live. Well, while not telling him what was going on was still making it difficult. Its Frustrating knowing you love someone, but can't do anything about it. Or you have the chance to, but can't figure out WHAT to do. He likes me, he didn't deny it. I just don't know what to do otherwise.

I'm writing some new songs. I wrote the one that's called "the wild horse song" several weeks ago, but haven't really worked on it. I went home last night, and cranked out Dark Angel (surprise) and i'm actually quite happy with it. I need to finish it though. This one is one i had no trouble writing.

in other worlds, I've worked hard and pushed to get a friend hired here at work, and it looks like its going to happen. YAY....... this is going to be an interesting rest of the year.

I'll have to tell my california story another time. I'm being bugged by my boss to update all my tickets.

and alex is kidnapping me after work.

yay

 ** EDIT a YEAR LATER **

This night was the night that Cory and I officially started dating. He flirted non stop with me when I showed up at stephs....

^__________________^  and a whale smiled at me, is my favorite quote from that night.