I hope one day you wake up, and find that what you were looking for has been before your eyes the entire time.

Well.... it was. It was right there in front of my eyes, and I was an idiot. I can't seem to figure out why i have such a problem doing certain things. I can't seem to let myself get really close to anyone without it being so complicated. My friend Jase thinks that because of my childhood, and interactions with my mom, that i have to learn to be able to generate feelings of bonded ness..... etc. And that since i really didn't have that when i was younger, its alot harder for me to do it.

I missed it. And it really really sucks. That's all i wanted to say.