Parting....
So I cried today... I cried all the way home. Tears flowing freely, mascara running down my cheeks, head buried in my lap. All the way home. A silent cry, with maybe a slight deep breath every now and then when I came up for air. My friends are leaving. It is the last day of the BYU semester. I got a hug from a close friend and that started it up badly. I didn't want to leave.. but I really didn't want him to see me crying. He downed a whole cup of milk for me. I need to send him an email later tonight. he's done so much for me. Ha.. if this isn't obsessive, I don't know what is. No. Its terrible. The sadness that I felt in the car on the way home. Shoot. I'm crying again. SEE WHAT YOU MADE ME DO????? MY MAKEUP IS ALL SMUDGED NOW!!!!! I uh, need to work on my philosophy paper and final for tomorrow morning. I'll miss D and his jokes, and J and his special piano improvisations. I'll miss W and his advice, and his jokes, and entertainment... especially his facial expressions.. (Those used to scare me :) ) and then I'll miss B. You know that list of teachers you have.. the ones you never forget, that made a difference, but don't exactly comprehend what kind of difference they've made in your life? well... sorry. My tears are making it hard to type. You know what I'm probably never going to see W again. And B once told me, this game has a time limit, and then its going to end. Well, it ended. And I didn't want it to end. These 3 original guys, and then the other 3 I met later.. B, W and D, and then J, S, and C... have done so much for me, and they don't even realize that they have. (well, b probably does, I've told him 500000 times. ) They've been such good friends, i just can't stand not seeing them again, or hearing their laughter. I will see b again. He doesn't think he's getting a farewell, but in UTAH they give farewells and I WILL be going to it. Even if I have to ride my bike. So I've got to get to work. I might be able to go back on campus later tonight... if I can finish studying... so talk later... KIKO
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