[Those words]
There's something strange how a few words, can just make your day. One of the big things that was an issue in my previous relationship, was that my ex boyfriend stopped saying "I Love You" or "I miss you" or even "I Need You. " When pressed, he couldn't give me an answer as for why he stopped. During the last 3 months of the relationship, and for the last 8 months after that... I have felt like no one needed/missed me. It surprised me every time I'd receive a text that stated "hey! come on over!" from Danny. Or "what are you doing?" From Chris. It surprised me when I'd get ANYTHING from Steph. When someone thought of me, I thought it was weird. I wouldn't believe it. Its why, when invited to things, I wouldn't go, or I'd show up late. During moments of time when I think clearly, I can see the psychological damage that I did to myself, and that my ex boyfriend helped enable. Haha.. I guess this is one of those times. I write this for myself. I can look back and see I'm not as worthless as I think I am sometimes. That people care about me more than just the money I provide. I guess its kind of funny, how worked up I got, when I received this text:
"Have a good afternoon, and Smile! I miss you :)"
That someone, 4886 miles away from me, remembered me, and not only that, he misses me too.
:')
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