[Danny]

This is Danny.

This is also Danny.

I remember meeting him 3 years ago.  At a dance thing.  Socorro introduced him to me.  He was a friend of Jenna who was a friend of Socorro.  I remember looking at him, and going, "wow, this guy is really good looking."  But knowing that he was hitting on my best friend was a little...  dismotivating.   But I thought he was really, really cool.

I friended him on Facebook, and kept up on it.  For the longest time, it felt like I was watching through a window at this life that was so cool. I could tap on the window all I wanted, but no one answered.  Granted I didn't try very hard, but, again, he had his own life, and I couldn't push my way into it. 

Fast forward 3 years.  

Danny is one of my best friends.  As of December, I somehow got in.  And the person I found, was by far much cooler, much more, complex, then I ever imagined. 

This is Danny as I know him now...

Every night, this is Danny.  

Danny is: 

Spiritual

Musically Brilliant
Self conscious, yet, uncaring about what people think.

Very talented.

Awkward ( sometimes on purpose ) 

lacking in self confidence. 

Really really fun to play halo with

Random

Good smelling

Frustrated

Stressed

Picky
Good looking

Intelligent

in need of a full time back scratcher

fascinating to watch

procrastinator

thoughtful

lost in his own world

funny

humble

loyal

couch potato

distracted

searching for something... not sure what on that.. there's a couple things he's looking for. 

technically, for all intents and purposes, invisible.... for which i don't know why.

"You can wallow in your own misery, and Laura and I will go have a delightful conversation about how dumb you are."

I like this connection I'm forming with Danny.  Its a bunch of moments of wordless understanding.  I spend more time with Chris than I do Danny, but I feel like I'm understanding Danny, more than Chris.  During funny moments, or when Chris does something stupid, or argues, or is frustrated... Danny and I will some how find each others eyes.  I'm not sure why that happens.  I'll do something stupid, and the first thing I do is look at Danny, and I've noticed that he kind of does the same thing.   Last night, Kayla was having lots and lots of frustrations and wasn't talking, and wordlessly, Danny conveyed all HIS frustration, just by looking at me. I could read and understand things just by looking at his eyes... Eyes are windows to the soul, and in Danny's case, they're very clear.

I remember thinking that Danny was this self confident, proper, business like person.... but in reality, Danny's a big goofball... complicated, and searching just as much as I am for the things that are missing in life. 

Danny is fun to watch.  He has a ton of facial expressions, and i'm getting to know them.

This one is classic danny.

Anyways, Danny will get extremely proud of himself for little things he says, or does, or accomplishes.  He gets this look on his face that makes me want to laugh.... "i did it... Yay!"  He's also very awkward at times.  I don't know if he does it on purpose, or if that's just the way he is... but i love it.    He is always making some kind of noise too. He also doesn't seem to care what people think of the things he does... something that I need to take to heart, and follow his example. 

" Sometimes I say things that make my friends stop and stare at me. "

One of my favorite parts of being around Danny, is i'm always taken out of my comfort zone.  Whether its improving on the piano, or having him look at me and hope I understand.  I'm always trying to better myself spiritually and just in general since starting to hang out with him.

Being musically compared to Danny Gray is probably one of the biggest compliments I have EVER received. Ever.

With all this coolness, Danny is also one of the most lonely, and internally frustrated people that I know.  He tends to stress himself out more than outside sources... and I don't know if its because he sets high goals for himself, and then doesn't reach them, or puts too much pressure on himself.  He gets distracted easily, and will put other things before the things he needs to do... but, haha, so do i.    He's a very very thoughtful person, spending more time in his head, then outside, but when he comes out, I'm always laughing.  Most of my one line quotes come from Danny.

Danny is one of the most incredible people I've ever met.. (and now i have to write other posts about other people...so that they don't feel angry..)  He cares more about life than he lets on, and thinks about things in such a way that redefines how I want to think. I love having conversations with him. I have found more about myself around him, believe it or not, i have to think, and ponder things. He is definitely a part of my life I never want to get rid of. He's one of the more intensely spiritual people that I know.

Dear Danny,
You are amazing.  Don't ever change who you are.  Well, make yourself better like you're supposed to here on earth, but don't ever change.  Keep your chin up, and realize how much of a difference you've made in my life.  If the worth of souls is great in the sight of God, you've made me realize my worth. Thank you for hundreds of things you'll never know.

Love,
Laura

Don't ask me why I wrote an article about Danny.  I'm not entirely sure myself.  I could say that I was inspired to... but that might be pushing it... its been something that has been bubbling up on my mind.  and when it does that enough, i tend to listen to it.    Literally...  the thought for the last week was "write a post called 'danny'"    weird... huh

No, Danny and I are not dating, nor does it look like we are.. just thought i'd put that there, so people don't randomly think weird things about this.....

Anyways...