Not entirely sure why. Cory's friend Hideo stopped following me on twitter and defriended me on live. Not sure why that bugs me so much... maybe another connection to Cory gone? I don't know... but it bugs me so badly.
I'm so frightened of having a 'last straw' with people i call friends.. Cause while i call them friends, they may not feel the same about me. A year ago, once the squad was formed, i never had any fear of it... Then Teal left, and Jess left, and Steph got mad, and Cory.. who was there the longest, is gone. He's been around for 4 years, and he's gone. I'm sure he hates me... everyone does sometime. I really want to sleep. For a long time, and hope that the pain that chases me everyday goes away. Both the person who harasses me and the pain of not having a normal life anymore. It hurts. So much. I still spend alot of my time in tears... mostly for the lack of solid friendship in my life.
I got several other achievements in Left for dead tonight. I put my brother on the xbox with me. and i got several things i've been working on for a while. Sadly, it was usually cory i was working with, but, alas, he won't even add me on live.
Jase comes out on sunday... and he's promised to take me out on a date...
not sure how i feel about that.
My toenail is falling off
I hate my life.
I'm not sure why you would allow Jase to take you on a date... just sayin'. That's kind of weird. I'm still your friend, Laura. :) We can plays and stuffs. Just call me.
ReplyDeleteKeep your toenail on! :). Anyway, jumping on someone else's wagon without knowing which direction their going, without opening your own eyes to look around, doesn't that sound a bit off? Take a breather. You say you have no friends, yet are you sure you have no friends waiting for you?
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